阴天

The results came out

i din get it

tbh i thought i wouldnt feel anything at first 

maybe just a lil disappointed

But the fact that all of my frens got in

Made it worst

Im super disappointed

Being a rlly unconfident person

I applied for camp  faci

I rlly wanted to make more frens

And have alot of fun

And try new things

Im actually a really timid person

Im afraid of failures embarrassment and most profoundly

REJECTION

I thought i would get lucky

I would get it

The chance to  grow into someone better

I went all out of my comfort zone
but u all just went and crush my confidence just like this

真的 要踏出这一步 对我来说真的需要很大的勇气

一直以来

我的中学生涯

真的是很平凡的过

甚至无声无息

Coz everyone in wms is so fkin judgemental

还要自以为清高
i felt damn rejected everytime i try to do something

我什么都不参加

不过问

也不是没试过想跟他们打成一片

但圈子不同 何必强融

换了个新环境

终于鼓起勇气 想要尝试不一样的

因为我看到朋友的到了很珍贵的回忆 朋友等

I even prepared a script for interview

I was serious i wanted it quite badly

原来身边的朋友都成功 自己却失败 是这样的滋味

maybe its just not meant to be

Maybe every thing is predetermined at first

Its god sign to ask me to focus on my studies i guess??

If i think like this, maybe i will feel better....

人总要在失败中成长

至少我努力过 跨过了自己心的坎